Hope your future girlfriends never check your internet history. Just go with the flow would be my ambiguous advice - experiment SAFELY - and you'll find out. I don't think you can categorise yourself as heterosexual. My first time with another guy was horrible. Your disgust is based on a social stigma you've internalised, yet you still have sexual attraction to other guys.įirst time experimenting with anything will always be awkward, especially if you're unsure about yourself. A gay man kissing a woman wouldn't be disgusted. Kissing someone shouldn't disgust you regardless of your sexual preference. Seriously though, I think you might be a slightly homophobic bisexual. The reason your finding it abnormal, is becuase you not used to having sexual experiences with men, I can't say I have any experience as I've never had thoughts of this nature other than women, but it does sound your gay or bi To be honest, you've watched gay porn and have been willing to experiment with another guy, and despite the fact that you 'didn't enjoy it' it does appear from what you've told us, that you could in fact be gay or bi sexual. I am not attracted to men when I see them in real life and am attracted to women. I still find it so, so hot and regularly jerk off to it. However, I have not been able to stop watching gay porn. I did not enjoy that experience at all and was relieved that I was straight. When we were done I got out of there as fast as I could. I don't know what it is, but something about it turns me on so much and I find myself getting hard almost instantly and I *** much more to gay porn than to heterosexual porn.Ī few months ago, I wasn't able to control myself any longer and met up with this guy over the internet who also wanted to experiment with a guy. However, over the past couple of years, I've also started watching gay porn.
Like any normal guy, I've been watching straight porn since I was a teenager.
I've dated and had sex with a few girls in the past but am single now.